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Weathering the storm

I want to be courageous. Maybe i am but i don’t give myself the credit i deserve. At 44 I’m still trying to find my way through life. I’m not sure how i do it but i do. I’m tough on myself i need to give myself grace. I’m thinking of purging my Facebook friends.Continue reading “Weathering the storm”

Self Doubt

I am over it. I’m tired of being an emotional basket case. I’m tired of letting every little word that is said or not said drive me crazy. It’s exhausting. I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of feeling, I’m tired of being emotional – I’m just tired. And I have no clue how to getContinue reading “Self Doubt”

Uggh! I’m Manic

From day to day, I truly never know how I’m going to be feeling. Yesterday, I managed watching my two year old and cooking dinner. The morning was a little rough but to calm myself and him down we went and watched the trains pass by. Luckily, I live in a town with tons. Today,Continue reading “Uggh! I’m Manic”

Alcoholic Sacrament: Part 2

I begin to realize my vodka was quickly disappearing. I surely couldn’t let that happen! It wasn’t long before him and I both started hiding the vodka. We started hiding it in empty vases, behind couches, in cupboards, under the bed, in the closet, in the bathroom, and in containers labeled, “rubbing alcohol”. Unfortunately heContinue reading “Alcoholic Sacrament: Part 2”

Why Are You Here? — Gods of Advertising

He was “a piece of shit junkie.” His words. Clean almost a year Jake begins a harrowing lead. His entire family are addicts (active or dead) and, not surprisingly, he had started using early in life, in the 5th grade, whatever he could get his hands on: weed, booze, cocaine, meth… Then he tried heroin. […]Continue reading “Why Are You Here? — Gods of Advertising”

Alcoholic Sacrament Part One

Four years of my life down the drain! It must be said that it wasn’t all his fault since I was the enabler and a participant. When we first met I had been divorced for a whole year. Surely that was enough time for another long term relationship… what the heck was I thinking? TheContinue reading “Alcoholic Sacrament Part One”

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Wow! 2 yrs old 🤔

I was eighteen when I had my first child and maybe it’s because I was so young but it seems too take so much of my energy nowadays to put in a full day. I know that sounds terrible but holy molley it’s the truth. Differences My first child was more mellow. He didn’t mindContinue reading “Wow! 2 yrs old 🤔”

What is Your Biggest Fear When It Comes to Your Mental Health?

Years ago, when the diagnosis of anxiety and depression was finally discovered for me, I experienced many different emotions. I had already journeyed through the ups and downs of joy and sadness. My daily activities were often interrupted by a serious change in emotions that would arise at any moment. Doctor visits often left meContinue reading “What is Your Biggest Fear When It Comes to Your Mental Health?”