My heart speaks out to youO’Lord my words are silentO’Lord my days are grayPlease come to me in this quiet Help me to see the hope in front of meHelp me to leave it all behindHelp me to see the beautyGive me the courage to swallow my pride O’Lord let me see the lightI fallContinue reading “Here my Prayer”
Tag Archives: Mental Health
One Year Sober
Last night at Celebrate Recovery, I celebrated my one year of sobriety. I gave my testimony of my past life, my struggles and my accomplishments. This year has been full of many blessings and also tribulations. I have struggled with my mental health on numerous occasions and still have them regardless of the sobriety IContinue reading “One Year Sober”
Tears of a Warrior
Though I stand still and knowMy tears fall and surely showThough I’m with strength and courageousMy heart cannot reach solace, suddenlyMy eyes are watered, I cannot see, the endMy thoughts trickle to despair again. I stand still falling into quick sand, frightenedWaiting for the moment to be enlightened, cryingMy insides slowly dying, brieflyFor a momentContinue reading “Tears of a Warrior”
Manic Ahead
I’ve been so frustrated. Husband switched employment which will benefit the family on many levels; however, I’m watching the kiddo way more which causes obvious stress. My bipolar is in manic episode mode. I slept a whole 4 hours last night. Impatience and agitation are peaking. I want to be compassionate to the long hoursContinue reading “Manic Ahead”
Intrusive
My mouth opens slowlyNo words protrude from my mouthMy eyes dont blinkWide open, feels like I’m in a cloudThe very white of my eyesToday is a blood shot redI yawn but I can’t close my eyesI try not to hold the thought of being deadYou think, “what’s normal?”I blink as the eye lashes touch myContinue reading “Intrusive”
Alcoholic Sacrament: Part 2
I begin to realize my vodka was quickly disappearing. I surely couldn’t let that happen! It wasn’t long before him and I both started hiding the vodka. We started hiding it in empty vases, behind couches, in cupboards, under the bed, in the closet, in the bathroom, and in containers labeled, “rubbing alcohol”. Unfortunately heContinue reading “Alcoholic Sacrament: Part 2”
Alcoholic Sacrament Part One
Four years of my life down the drain! It must be said that it wasn’t all his fault since I was the enabler and a participant. When we first met I had been divorced for a whole year. Surely that was enough time for another long term relationship… what the heck was I thinking? TheContinue reading “Alcoholic Sacrament Part One”
Post-partum Depression
Where do I even begin to explain that experience? I’ve had a child in the past and never had that happen to me, of course I didn’t plan on my son almost dying in my arms either. Christopher I was taken by ambulance to a hospital more equipped to handle the premature birth. On AugustContinue reading “Post-partum Depression”
Why Alcohol?
Dr. Daniel Hall-Flavin, board certified in general psychiatry and addiction psychiatry, is a St. Louis native. He states, “Bipolar disorder and alcohol use disorder, sometimes called alcoholism, often occur together. Although the association between bipolar disorder and alcohol use disorder isn’t clearly understood, these factors likely play a role: • Depression and anxiety. Some people drinkContinue reading “Why Alcohol?”
Motivation “Let’s Go!”
Almost a year, I will have sustained from alcohol. Yes, on top of the mess I already have going on in my head, I drank to cope. I didn’t click with A.A. membership and just kept depending on the bottle. Finally, I reluctantly went to Celebrate Recovery. I did not like it at first. OneContinue reading “Motivation “Let’s Go!””
Girl Interrupted 